A Good Night's Sleep
A strange realization occurred to me the other day, walking around my neighborhood on a sunny weekend afternoon. Almost every night since I started teaching, when I went to bed my mind was racing. I would fret or fixate over a student with behavior problems or a student struggling to read. I would replay the events of the day, or anticipate the next day's lessons anxiously in detail.
This was my startling epiphany, that at some point in the recent months, I was going to bed, and not obsessing over my work. I'm not sure of the cause of this change, or what it means for my teaching, but I'm grateful. It doesn't mean I'm working less or caring less about my kids or my lessons, but somehow without meaning to, I figured out how to let go and give myself a rest when it was time.